weird inmiself :)

home of picture

this instant brush

that comes over
this instant blush
of elated blow within
it comes and goes...

like wind, like wind

sometimes comes
harder, expressing
its multitude of
sides... takes me off
from feet...

Ah, like weirdo
I sit 

and smile 
does stay
glued to me...

this elated feeling...

bliss, what else indeed.

The Beat of my Hearth

Feel this Rhythm
THE RYTHM of your Hearth
do you feel the pulse of it
This is yours, isn't it

have you spoken to it lately
have you danced,
lately.
have you had passion
Anger perhaps,
laughter
or soaked it with
tears of yours

Do you feel your beating hearth
this is your Love-match within
you know... embrace your being
cuddle tightly, its yours...
if not you, then who?

David ja Mathilda

Last night,
you were here
visiting and saying:
staying for a while

I was happy, yes I was
we are friends...
and up to something
yes, 'bout to do...

and morning came
with the song you sang
... never let U/Me down...
I was happy.

found the song,
let it play
and I cried
my hearth was happy

and there...
Mathilda came
Matilda,
I've known you too
for aeons. 

and here I am,
you are there, somewhere...
and I am happy
that you ARE

You are loved
within my realm
I've known you both
for Aeons

and I am happy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKdnbARmMOM&ab_channel=gotosleep 

https://leosalazar.blogspot.com/search?q=little+things 

https://uustulgu.blogspot.com/2019/09/matilda-keeleke-veel-saladus-02092019.html

The Light of Love

So,

I am the Light of Love
Standing on the Coast
of Eternal Ocean
Hope for arrival

I am
the Light of Hearth
At the Coast,
At Sea
Hope for Safe

So everyone
Could sail by,
everyone with
Their LoveSpark inside
Hope for Bliss

And I stand at Coast
Seen by all
and everyone
by their Light of Heart
being this all

Here's the Coast
Sailor
There's the Coast
for all of you! know!
For all!

The Light of Love
cannot be divided
its always whole
Always whole
yet in everyone

You can receive 
This undivided Love
for becoming
the Light of Love
on your island
between the Ocean

I am called to be this Light
I've called me to be this Light
so my body would be
like a Lighthouse
at the Sea, at the Ocean
to wait and to be

The Love I feel

the Love I felt, I still do...
it's in my veins, bones..
within my heart.
I feel its blessing

through many eyes
are you, are you
I love, my Love
you're there, your eyes, 
I know, I feel, you're there

You're changing constantly
everchanging, 
your face,
but feel inside
it's always same

I know you
You're there
besides me
I am besides
So we feel

My ancient, old memory

 

It is from old

I know you
I know
you...
the day we met,
on the other island

and here now
I am on one
other,
on felsland

the island of
fallen...
I'we been
thinking of you
who you've been
in that old time

perhaps I went
to the ocean
and never
returned..

so I beg
forgivness
from you
my south wind

and still you are
in my wings..

I am FIRE, Earth, Air, WATER (secret) 20.11.2019

to dream on OLD
as NEW, as wished for
where there were
only TWO -
woman and a man,
no STRINGS attached.

Oldfashioned
is it? IS?


Old fashioned it is :), indeed,
since then the one, he, the man
is only yours, no need to share
no reason for doubt
...
but,

you have your own
matter of choice
these rules apply here
if you deem to,
if you need to...

yet

all, loyalty and else
is in love, default
so hear, hear
your HEARTH
is a friend to tell
you that this
or that
or those...

yeah, right
these are for you
your body laughs
your shreds are full
of fire!

you are fire
in wood
in flood
in water

you are
THIS...

no Rules apply!

vote for the Singular Unity

tume või hele või lihtsalt (Saladus) 10.10.2019

Nimetu, minu sees...

Kui vajaduses -

olen se's üksi.

täiesti.
lootus on tühine

vajaduse vabastamine,
pimedusse valguse loomine.
arvamused on erinevad,
kõik kõnelevad samast...

mida valin?
lõputu valguse
lõputu pimeduse
kohalolu kogemise

või pimedus puudub?
on vaid erinev valge valgus:
roosa, beež, heleroheline
nii ju on...

olemises puudutan
varju ja valgust,
olen ma siis
vari või valgus

kes on nägija
nimetu, keeletu
kes on kuulja
tumm kõneleja

loen, saan osa
maailmast.
kus siin mina on,
kus õilmitseb mõistmine?

edenemise duaalsus
paigalseisja ajatus
pole algust, pole lõppu
edenemise lõpulugu

sajab

mu Jumal minus
mu ümber
igaühe ümber
mu Jumal

kõik on
ja kutsub - Mina
nimetu, nimeta
alati kohal

mina mõistab
kohut saamatuses
kohus kohustab hukkaõistu
kohus, kelle kohus?

kes mõistab kohut,
valib alati poole.
mis on mu kohus?
anda õigus kõigele?

anda vaba valik -
ja keskkond toimib 
sisesel toel, nõul.
aga Jumal mu sees, ees, vees, see

on igalpool kohal
see vaatleja, see vaatleja
loodu tema särk ja püksid
eks tunne siis ära...

Absoluutselt vastutustundetu, mõttetult särav... :) (ei tea kes) 09.10.2019

mudas, mudas
segaduses, armuta
sõge armutuses,
mida muda.

kuhu suruda,
mis on tähendus?
mis jälg jätta
tuleva põlve?

tulev, olev.
jagamatu üks.
järgnevusest teadvel
siiski olematu,

küll kujutlev
siiski reaalne
minus endas.
teised naeravad...

olen olematu,
oleva teadmatu,
jahupea karkudel
ükskõikne, ÜksKõikne.

osavõtmatuse hääl
kajab valju naeru saatel -
olen tühine -
olen tühja täis

kusagil on marjamaa
maarjamaal seda pole
on perse ja särk,
värki pole.

ärksamaid tabab
õnnestunud ebaõnn
teineteise laim,
ebaõnnes on õnn.

no mis sa teed,
mis sa kurat teed
kui ma olen kaitsetu
kaitsest tüdinud

lase siis haarab
mu südamest
peast ja persest
vahet pole, täiesti mõttetu...

ning ikka
jalustrabavas joobes
elust enesest,
ise-enesest

astun
samm ja kaks
kukun, laman tasa -
täiesti surnult, ärkan...

ärkan millesse
ikka lõppematusse
muretsemine on tegevus
täiesti tulutu, täidab aega.

aga mida siis valin
valikud on samased.
kulgemine seistes,
seisev on kõikne.

teadvel kogemuses
igavikuses üksiolus,
sukeldus üksiolusse
teadlik kogemus.

olen tühjuse tühi
olen tühi tühjuses
tühjuse võrdkuju,
olen

OLEN
Taju
kogemus,
teadvus
suk am nelut

tunned ära
võõrkeele,
negatiivsus
on test postiviisvulese

positiivsusel on seisund
pole sel asja.. see on ...
lihtsalt, see on
täiesti ükskõikne, Mina olen...

positiivsus on tagurpidi
negatiivsusel on savi
savi hakkab külge
nii ma rooman...

roomates edasi
ilma, eesmärgist ilma
ikka elus, mis mõttes
mis mõttes elus?

ise olen
olen ise
see ma olen
mis ma siis olen?

mis ma siis olen
tühi ja täis
sõltub tunnist
sõltub kohast

sõltub
olen elusõltuv
elu on nakkus
täis elamise nakkust

kus see ravim...
olen kogemus
ja mida valin
olengi mina.

praegu on tühi
praegu on nii...

Minu Eestimaa õudus, äratuse aeg on käes... 19.03.2019 (silver)

Eesti,

Pildi kodu

paljukannatanud,
sõdades põletatud,
katkudest räsitud, 
teiste piiratud ja taga kiusatud,
põlatud, vägistatud ja neetud,
sajandeid omal maal teiste ikkes olnud,

nii, et nood on päris harjumuseks saanud:
karta,
muretseda,
kahtlustada,
salata,
salatseda,
süüdistada,
nuriseda,
ära panna,
halvustada..

normaalsuseks,
tõeks ja õiguseks...
jonni ajamiseks

elada õnneta, rõõmuta
kannatades, kandu kokku lüües...
küll saab kuidagi hakkama
nii peab, peab ja peab ja peab,
mis siin nuriseda, hea, et niigi läits...

võib-olla, ehk - ootuses...

töötades elust surnuks
töösse mattes,
armutusse,
unustusse,
kartes ja kartes ja kartes,
tühisusse, tühjusesse

piiru valgel unistusest
unistades,
salamisi
ümisedes
nutu-ulgu, kurbi viise

ja siis -
kord sajandis vabadusest lauldes.
ja siis jälle porri komistades

kartes karistust,
selle ootuses ...

ja siis sealt kusagilt
küll kuskohalt ...

...

Eesti Rahva Vana Testament - Kalevipoeg

kõige lõpus
KÕIGE lõpus
kõige LÕPUS

...
Aga ükskord algab aega,
Kus kõik piirud kahel otsal
Lausa lähvad lõkendama;
Lausa tuleleeki lõikab
Käe kaljukammitsasta -
Küll siis Kalev jõuab koju
Oma lastel′ õnne tooma,
Eesti põlve uueks looma.

no they, but us...

Silver Vahtra they (if we can name so afterall..?? 
perhaps 'we' is more proper calling for this purpose)

so

we are on the path,

always on the path
like in camino
some are with us
some passing in rush
some, oh, yes
some are to meet
us in half way
passing
heading to
where we begun
their path is sacred
too

we are pilgrims
yes we are
so there's but
path and walk
better of worse
that's gift from mind

befriend your mind
this marvellous
helper it is
worthy chap!

so we go...

that is, what is not

that is, what is not
for sane eye is blind
in light to bliss

we go as we know
for path chosen
the destiny of ours

that is what is
The Father we knee
indeed

for what I am
to ever build
in sane, so clear
no fear of sound
and other realms

distant presence
dreams of bright night ...

for listening
for hearing
for you, for the world:

the Ship

address of pic

Ship of The Sun
For travel The Sky
Ship for The Sun
In The Milkyway
For messages of Past
To bring The Future





Had a dream
Of a vessel
I've seen
Times before.
Now query Comes
This dream of what?

be tuned...

be tuned smile-emotikon

the sound of you
out of mainstream
is what creates
empty glimpses of crazy mirror

there's me, I find...

so, while you speculate with words
for unseen stand up reportage..
I can read your lips, indeed.
we're in same, we do all same

Bodies, screaming fraking bladi mess

did drive home, this particular evening...

screaming fucking bloody mess
I felt the fury in me
comforting, exploding from me
yes, yes...lazy glimps of comfort

my youth with anger
with hopes without ends
screaming fracking bloody mess...
this revolting mind out of me...

did drive home
my neat cd did in volume great...
scream in fucking bloody mess
like I am, inside out... out...out...

where I am to go?
where I am to be?
what is my Glad?
scriiming fooking bloody mess

wheresthepoint? no name for it...

bodies, bodies, bodies
and my revolt can be of help
my screaming can be of help
cream in fooking bluudi mess

can be? should be!
what a mess, I'm a mess
ah, everything is a mess.
screaming fucking bloody mess,
with a fury and vigor mess! :)

Justkui Võõrsil

Mõnikord
on pilt nii uudne
kui värskelt saabund linna

seisan vaates - inimesi liikvel -
kui veider kuju, liikumise viis...

first time

Loomine on kuju andnud,
ja kõik on täiuslik.
ja ometi, nii erakordne valik!

ma vaatan suuril silmil,
kuju tunnetus on uudne.

Eri näod ja kujukehad,,,
sipelgad ja inimesed, kõik loodu,
jäsemed ja pead, nii erinevad!

vaatan imetledes
ja hämmingus, ma vaatan.

Loomisel on olnud aega
nii palju valmis teind...

(kui palju valmis teinud!!)

neist kõnelda on raske (pole sõnu)
salmis ainsas või siis kahes,
olemise ilmeid, armsaid, võõraid

nii kõnnin "kodus",  vahel veider...
kui tundmatusest tulnud tüüp :)

silmad uued, tundmusedki heidrad
ah, meenub mulle Esimene metsatukk...

About the Rain

the rain that showers,

cleaning dirt to grass
greening land and forest

hey, rain come to me
wash me green
for if I could ask

hey rain, bubbling over
the river, to sea
nice to meet you...

2046, the movie of LIFE

the room with year of 2046, 
with memoirs of dried tears.
memoirs are just dried tears

rain's outside and so grey sky
in mid of december,
soon to be Christmas

24th, again in wait, in to be...
you see, lost memoirs, gone
can't be taken back, but washed 
and dried...

2046, where hopes are true...

2046

Today I walked way to work

today I walked the
way to work
just like the other, any day
I felt an ich like hit of fork
all I met, their look was other way



I've noticed it, the world is blind
or perhaps it, could I say
my sole is teared, no bind
with islets in stormy bay



so while walking with this thought
I did look to meet a human blush
no look for morning smile was brought
bid for million went down in rush

oh, dear, this blind rush...