Monday, April 27, 2026

Kõik on ÜKS

 Kõik on üks.




On loomulik, et kõik ilmnev saab nähtavaks poolustes.
Must ja valge, yin ja yang, rõõm ja kurbus, ligitõmme ja eemaldumine.
Aga need pole tegelikult vaenlased. Need on ühe ja sama olemise nähtavaks saamise piirid.

Rõõmus elab alati kurbuse vari.
Ja kurbuses on alati rõõmu kutse.

Kõik teod sünnivad armastusest
või tundest, et armastust pole.

Ka tõrjumine.
Ka põgenemine.
Ka kinnihoidmine.
Ka vaikimine.
Ka liigne tahtmine.

Äärmused sünnitavad vastasseisu seal, kus tegelikult on vaid piirini jõudnud kogemus.
Kui üks vajab lähedust ja teine vajab ruumi, siis ei pruugi üks olla õige ja teine vale.
On kaks ilmnemise piiri, mis kohtuvad.
Kui neid ei mõisteta, sünnib sõda.

Tark teab, et vari ei ole valguse vaenlane.
Vari on valguse liim, milles kujud saavad ilmuda.

Ilma varjuta pole nähtavat vormi.
Ilma valgustamata pole varjul tähendust.

Nõnda siis polegi äärmusi.
On olukord, mis toimub oma loomulikkuses.

Süda tunneb seda enne mõistust.
Süda ütleb:
pole põhjust, pole sõda.

Põhjuse kirjutab vaatenurk.
Igal on oma tõde.

Meister ei võida sellega, et tema tõde jääb peale.
Meister näeb, et iga tõde on õige oma asukohast vaadatuna.
Ja kui kaalukeele telg on paigas, on kõik nähtav.
Siis pole vastandeid.
On ainult mõistmine.

Ja ometi unustavad ka meistrid.
Nad jäävad oma tunnistatud tõesse kinni ja hakkavad võistlema õiguses.

Aga kui kõik on sama olemise eri nägu,
siis mis mõte on võita?

Võib-olla on iga tasand ainult kasvulava järgmisele.
Iga mõistmine muutub kord uueks piiriks.
Iga piir kutsub edasi.

Kõik on teekond.
Kõik on tee-kond.
Kõik me oleme teekondlased.

Ja võib-olla on deemon lihtsalt kinnisidee.
Tunne, mis ei saa liikuda.
Armastus, mis muutub nõudmiseks.
Hirm, mis muutub kontrolliks.
Valu, mis muutub looks, millest ei suudeta lahti lasta.

Siis ei ole deemon väljaspool.
Ta on koht meis, kus energia on jäänud ainult ühte tõlgendusse.

Üks on muster.
Kaks on poolused.
Aga päriselt toimub elu nende vahel.

Sinu ja minu vahel.
Meiesuses.
Nendesuses.
Kõigesuses.

Ja ka siis, kui olen vastaspooles, otsin ma ikka teed tagasi mõistmisse:
kus ma seisan?
mida ma kaitsen?
mida ma armastan?
mida ma kardan?

Lõpuks jääb küsimus:

Kas ma tahan olla õige
või tahan ma olla SinaMina?

Sest õigus eraldab.
SinaMina ühendab.

Ja ühendus ei tähenda alati koosolemist.
See võib tähendada ka seda, et ma ei tee Sind valeks, kui Sa lähed.
Ja ma ei tee ennast valeks, kui ma jään.

In Lak’ech.
Ala Kin.

Mina olen teine Sina.
Sina oled teine Mina.

Ja siiski oleme mõlemad vabad.

Saturday, November 29, 2025

It saddens me

this song came to me,
and reminded
and made me sad.

not so pity of myself
just..
these un-lived moments
that were to come
yet left in neverland

yes, yes.. 

I am a dreamer
and sometimes
indeed,
too soft
for being strong,
for myself

perhaps
it is kinda
self-pity too!
well, yes it is, 
I know

but all
of these
un-lived moments
were worth to live alive.
indeed!

Seems like whining,
perhaps...!?

So I chose myself instead!

but sadness comes ...
occasionally...

like today!



Friday, November 21, 2025

You know?!?

 you know



there is nothing..
I mean, truly, 
nothing

if you have 
not considered to give

I mean,
if you are not
in the giving
relation

And I was a fool,
creating a connection
on what?

on emptiness


how one 
can fool
itself!?!?

remembering.. of passing by of time...........

 I remember..
now..

you know,

just now!!

*

we were togetherrrrrrrrrrrr!!
I mean.. there were no boundaries..
you know.. there were not :), indeed

and we...
inside, outside of each other
we're screaming through eyes!
through loigns
softly speakin
we had loin's 
together..


well, yes, indeed!
how otherwise.


you did go....
you did ask,
if I am ok?

it hurt, truly..

it was painful!

but I did behave
yes I was good...!
bravely..!

heh.. I behave as a Knight.

well I was it, afterall

and You were..!?

 my ... ... ever Love!



well words are 
not so good 
to describe!

indeed!

you were above
it all...

how strange
we are one
yet i felt you above.

and I were 
within
we'e ONE

and it felt
beautiful...

I truly 
am 
Love,
in Love,<<
so Above

and then...

there's


no definition
no explanantion


just depth of feeling.
truly... very deep inside!!!!!!!!!!


indeed.



Wednesday, October 22, 2025

To Serve

"The perfect blossom
is a rare thing.
You could spend your life looking for one,
and it would not be a wasted life.
They are all perfect!"

*** 

Today,

yes,
today I did remember

those very old memories in me...
when I held The Sword,
at the Age of warrior
on the Land of rising Sun..

I remembered in me,
The Honour in
the Blade I wore,
the sign of dignity, of freedom
on the Land of rising Sun

I reminded
what meant
to pay for mistakes
with my life...
to protect that was important

I remembered...

I still carry it
in my Heart
yet my mind has forgotten

so I've been deceitful
in so many ways
in so many days

And my Soul is ill
and crying
for the honour
I once knew
I once wore

Today I reminded..

the Time,
on the land
of Rising Sun

I found my Blade
once again

***

"I believe man does he can
until his destiny reveals to him."

***

So I reclaim my sword

it says now:
"I belong to the warrior
in whom the old ways
has joined the new."


And so be it!

Friday, October 17, 2025

Varrode lugu...

Ghost time...

when there is a time

when everything,
absolutely everything...

is too much,
overwhelming...

you!
you feel like this...
crazy.. not knowing 
what's going on...

and you retreat...
because it is too scary... too obvious...
limiting too much you freedom...!

but,
you know...

you
touched something...
spacious, dangerous,
eternally yours..
but you tired
too weary...

yet so deeply profoundly,
beautifully genuine...

you...
real you
never felt like this
about you
about me...

you... it is you...

the other tried
the dark,
weary, old, wounded you,
it tried,
to push you over the edge...

and there you were
lost in the 
confusion

naked.. untouched,
completely shaked,
very, oh god.. very moved..

completely fucked 
to the heaven...
and you felt it all..
I felt it all
surely I did..!

and then..
and you ran away..

Oh yeah,

well done, well done
indeed
this is for the best
all good memories,
remain...

running away is better
than surrendering...
because staying means
dissolving into boredom
of numbing
into
day-to-day

because

dilution is much worse.

and the...!

and in fact..

none of this matters anymore..

it's done..!

it's the past!
we are the past..
a memory in each other's memory.

I hate you...
I love you eternally

(I think you know that already, don't you?)

Wednesday, February 12, 2025

Ma tulen et Olla

 Ma tulen, et olla

näha Päikese tõusu
Näha, kuidas Ta Loojub
tunda ja kogeda
Aja Heldust
Heldet Aja Kulgu

vahel on nii ...
nii, et kriibib sügavalt...
Kõikjal ikka õilmitseb

Vahel on nii
et mina Nutab
Mu Süles

on see siis
imeline kohtumine
on see siis
Avaneja avanev kestvus

Rõõm Aja Helduse Embusest

Lihtsat Armastuse kestev Kohalolu
keset varje ja valgust
keset loomet ja loodut
keset ennast ja kõike

Kohtumine loodu teadvusega
isetehtud teadvusega
ja seal on see hurm
Seal on see HURM

Osaduse Suur Ime

Teadvuse kestev Lugu




Saturday, January 25, 2025

Wind's walkin and me with!

Wind's walking
in the air, 
through and through,
long  distances...

where you come?
and go, where?
I missed you well!
your breath's
so smooth.

and here you are
again
blowing me
blowing me
blowing me
away from... ,
to the ..!

here I am
with you,
wind, again
in constant
LOVE

How beautiful 
your breath Is
I feel inside,
around me well

So you go...